do the dansen~!!

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Listening: (werk) Battle Moon Wars - The Sword of Promised Victory
Reading: Shinohara Kenta - Sket Dance Chapter 133
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One of the most diabetically annoying things I have ever done. CLICK FOR THE SWF!!

We wanted to, uh, learn to hate flash less. So I did fanart. Hur hur. It worked, sorta. Now get back to work!

i need something to cheer me up

I thought: we haven't scanned this, have we? But I was lazy to scan it, so we used the handphone camera.




And I hate Flash. Even more so than Max. That takes a lot. Or maybe, I just don't like our lecturer.

TT ^ TT I miss you, Illustrator. You too, Toon Boom.

Unlimited Incantation

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Listening: Nishiura Tomohito - Cold Open ~Professor Layton's Theme~
Reading: Ookubo Astsuhi - Soul Eater Not! Chapter 1
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For some reason, I feel inspired to create my own UBW incantation. And here we go.

I am the ink of my pen
Characters are my body and story is my blood
I have created over a thousand images
Impervious to doubt, powered by imagination
Having withstood reality to create many worlds
Yet, these dreams will never coalesce
This is my life, unlimited art works


(Yes, I am a fan of Type-Moon.)

assortment of (fan)arts [Fall 2010 Semester]

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Listening: Far East Movement ft. Ryan Tedder - Rocketeer
Reading: The World God Only Knows - Chapter 127
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When Saru gets stuck in a drawing-block, especially after too much storyboarding and environment painting, she draws random charas/fanarts. Because they're relaxing.




Drawn some time ago, but scanned last semester.

And back to Fall 2010 stuff.

it is one of those days

where you feel the impulse to open up your skull and grab your brains out to throw them hard against the wall. Like that.


I hate Max. I f*cking hate Max.

What this game really needs, is a PAUSE button.

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Listening: YUI - again
Reading: Darren Shan manga - Volume 07
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That. So that there will be fewer players who feel like rage-quitting.

The GM who plans events for my PC really has a really bad sense of humour. Or overestimates my capability.

During my final weeks of semester quest? He throws in a funeral event.


My maternal grandfather passed away suddenly, on Sunday morning, in the toilet. Of all of my parents and grandparents, he is the one whose personality mine is most similar too. Mum and I guess he had ADHD as well.

Tentatively, cremation on Thursday. We don't know yet because the body is still undergoing an autopsy.

myhandsohcrapcrappcraappp

I want to say help me. but i don't know to who.

My hands are weak. especially when i carry or pick up something. My palms are sweating. what should i do? it is not just my right hand: if it was it would be from modeling in maya the whole weekend. my left hand too.

What can i do? the rest of my body feels fine. it is just my arms. i am not sick... i think.

as one can tell, even typing is hard. i feel so bad, i did not go to school today.

h e l p . . . ?

i am scared

a guy i haven't met is making me haemorrhage through my nose

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Listening: Gakupo - Joker
Reading: http://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/N
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Clearly, he is not a Real.

He is N from the new Pokemon game Black/White.



http://booru.151chan.org/post/list/N/2

Seriously, just look at him. *nosebleeds*

boy model in a gay walk pose

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Listening: Meiko & Kaito - The Pair Tree Witherer
Reading: Fairy Tail Chapter 207-209
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I hate:

• CAT Rig
• 3DS Max
• Digipen

Nice, the ADHD kicked in.

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Listening: Kagamine Len - SPICE!
Random Quote: We die every time we hand in our assignments, and resurrect with 1HP directly after that. We recover half of our MaxHP with sleep. Cycle repeats, except recovery is up to a quarter. And then an eighth. And then sixteenth. Until the end of the semester. - Joelynn
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I am not sure why. This semester, my ADHD seems to be in full blast. And Joelynn has been taking fish oils regularly most of the time too. Joelynn does not comprehend.

• She leaves my thumbdrive at home.
• She also leaves my handphone at home.
• She misplace assignments in his (now very neat) room. How does that happen?
• As a result, she leaves some of them out when he scan them.
• She cannot remember faces.
• She gets distracted within a third of the time he used to be.
• Though she read less manga, more dreams are seen and more events take place in his worlds.
• She cannot remember deadlines for crap.
• She cannot remember the exact specs of what is required.
• She forgets if he has eaten something she put in the fridge or not.
• She forgets to leave for school.

While all that does not affect me that badly (as a person), it will leave it's mark on my grades. One particular marine seal is particularly anal about punctuality and is warning me against failing. And that also causes me to mouth "fuck" to myself regularly. Siiigghh, Joelynn picked up another new bad habit.

I wonder if I could get some proper drugs for ADHD. Fish oil is fine and all, but sometimes desperate times may require desperate measures.

roleplay character portraits

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Listening: Sound Horizon - Utsuku shiki Mono
Reading: Lamentable Nights: The RP
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We restarted our RP at the NNK forums!! We're going reeeaally slow this round, making stuff clean and easy to follow. We have a user friendly wikia too!!

I tried to be funny this time, so I rendered these with Alias Sketchbook. (Yes, it is Alias, screw Autodesk.)


Varian Durer, my second PC, also a hidden character of sorts that will probably not show up at all, given the speed we are going at. (He also has a sister called Constance and a brother called Equates. Hail Mathematics!!)


My main PC. She's pretty much the same as in the previous failed RP. She's also an expy of an old character, Alex. So cute. =3 *sparkles*

i can't give a name to my emotion now

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Listening: Detroit Metal City - Mesu Buta Koukyoukyoku
Watching: Birdy the Mighty DECODE 02 - Episode 12
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I don't know, how to express myself. Much less expressing myself with drawings. I don't draw to express myself, I draw what I see in my head.



When I tried to express myself? We get this bad perspective thing.

10 favourite couples

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Listening: Yakushimaru Etsuko - Jesus to Venus
Watching: Nurarihyon no Mago - Episode 2
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I am bored.

Even though I am me who doesn't believe in romantic love, there are still couples I like rather much.

10. Igarashi Ganta / Shiro
(Deadman Wonderland)
Childhood friends who play together, despite the fact that one of them is a monster. Yea, I have no childhood.

9. Sima Yi / Shan Wuling
(The Ravages of Time)
Being together so they can make us of each other and scheme together? I approve.

8. Nougami Neuro / Katsuragi Yako
(Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro)
A sadistic demon who drags around a human girl to feed on the mysteries of other humans? I also approve. Well, there's also the fact that both have learnt from and taught each other many things about life.

7. Guts / Casca
(Berserk)
Guts may have struggled with it at first, but still tries to look after his wife, who is at the moment, mentally disabled. It is difficult, you know.

6. Ushiromiya Battler / Beatrice
(Umineko no Naku Koro ni)
They spent several years in a room debating. The proposition (an immortal witch) trolls humans about to prove that there are witches and magic, and the opposition (a human with a magic resistance of 9000+) vehemently refutes the existence of the supernatural. It is funny yet badass. And they got married.

5. Hanabishi Rekka / Satoshita Yanagi
(Flame of Recca)
It was something that started off as fanboyism of a ninja and his princess. Sweet in a simple straightforward way. And well, it was one of my first mangas.

4. Kamina / Yoko
(Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann)
Because Kamina is awesome.

3. Ichinomiya Kou (Recruit) / Nino
(Arakawa Under the Bridge)
Nino saves Kou in more than one ways, giving him a reason to do and receive acts of kindness without expecting a reward.

2. Amamiya Yuuhi / Asahina Samidare
(Lucifer and Biscuit Hammer)
Sami loves the world enough to want to destroy it, Yuu supports her because he hates the world and wants to destroy it. Lovely screwed-up-ness. Though Yuu starts to change through the series and stops Sami.

1. Pip Bernadotte / Seras Victoria
(Hellsing)
The only blood Seras ever drinks, is Pip's. ~__~ Those two are just really cute. Bwaaah---

End.

What is wrong with daydreams?

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Listening: Suneohair - Sakasama Bridge
Watching: Birdy the Mighty Decode - The Cipher
Reading: Nononono - Chapter 60
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I already understand, that fantasy and make-believe is a form of escapism from real life. But why is it wrong? Perhaps I should take it up to 11 and become a resident of Arakawa.

Everyone daydreams too, just each differing in their levels and type of imagination. Besides, if people like us don't daydream,
Who will write stories?
Who will draw illustrations?
Who will author manga?
Who will design characters?
Who will plan storyboards?
Who will shoot movies?
Who will animate films?
Who will make games?


As a parent, I feel sad that my children/creation's existence is being so definitively rejected. I am more God-like then I know, sometimes.

I am on a spree!

I took the so-called free time I have now to go crazy on the mangas and some animes. Even though I am plagued by other works and commissions yea. Such an irresponsible person I am.

Lucifer and Biscuit Hammer - manga
This series is ending~!! Chapter 62! Bwaaah, I am envious of you, Yuu-kun.

Durarara! - anime
Unlike Biscuit Hammer, I don't understand why this series is not popular. The author is a really wonderful storyteller.

Deadman Wonderland - manga
Shiro and Ganta combined attack. Now, how awesome is that? I feel sad for Madoka still. I hope there is some way that Shiro could save him.

Durarara! - anime
Yes yes yes story climax! I hope Trollzaya gets owned, though the chances of that happening is low.

Shiki - manga
FUJIRYU * _ * Style too awesome. Plot seems normal enough, but somehow, I am drawn in. Natsuno did something unexpected... And... should I be cheering or booing the HoYay between him and Touru?

House of Five Leaves - anime
For once, I like such a plain and serious anime. The style is just creepy cool. Masa's adorable too, but I think I'm watching it more out of respect for Samurai Champloo.

Arakawa Under the Bridge - manga/anime
Such a whimsical and out of this world manga/anime. SISTER~!! Probably, the first time I've ever adore a cross-dressing man. He is just too cute. "Who names a girl after a helicopter?"

Hellsing - manga / Hellsing Ultimate - anime
I rarely squeal over a girl, but every time Seras appears, I find myself doing so. She's bloody cute, and it's nothing to do with her rack. *fanboys* Of course, Pip is incredibly sexy as well, but since he is now a part of her, it's safe to say that I really like Seras.

The World God Only Knows - manga
And this, has to be my favourite harem manga. Keima is very charming, to me. For his deference to his virtual word and complete disregard for real life. This, is a man after my own heart. ~__~

Soul Eater - manga
I don't even know why. Soul and Maka vs. Giriko? Black☆Star vs. Kid?
And I miss Chrona.


(There are, of course, many other mangas I am reading, but these are those I am especially looking forward to/just finished, in particular.)

The ⑨ bucket list

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Listening: Kagamine Rin And Len - Road Roller
Reading: Walter's post
Random Quote: Many who plan to seek God at the eleventh hour die at ten-thirty. - Christian Proverb
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I felt like doing this. They things that are little and insignificant, and even rather random, but I still want to try doing them anyway. Pointless, but if it isn't, it won't be called the Cirno list won't it?

To be done. In progress. Done.

• Sleep for 24 hours
• Climb a tree
• Own a DSLR
• Talk with autistic people
• Sing a song and post on YouTube
• Make a short animation and post on YouTube
• Be a celebrity on the internet
• Compose a song
• Lead worship in a meeting bigger than a cell
• Play all (main) Touhou games
• Play at least 50% of Sonic games
• Meet an online friend from another country
• Teach a drawing class to children
• Release a short manga one-shot on my Chinese birthday
• See the sunset at Changi Beach
• See the sunrise at Changi Beach
• Stay in a hospital for a week
• Wear an eyepatch out
• Get a scar on my face
• Rub my art in the face of my Primary school teachers

I guess I will add more stuff when I feel like it.

Somehow I was proposed to...

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Reading: The World God Only Knows - Chapter 102
Random Quote: Can you don't go home? — A kid at the SCC
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... by a seven-year-old boy. It went like this:

Boy: Teacher, are you married?
Me: (chuckling) Ah... No, not yet.
Girl: He want to marry you.
Me: Ehh?! Ummm... (turns to boy) You want to marry me?
Boy: (looks away silently)

~___~ And, thus, I have collected another manga-panel-like situation.

I was convinced, for the first time, that things that happen in a shoujo manga can happen in real life. Boy is born with a weak body. He cannot overexert himself: walking too long, running too fast, laughing too loud, getting too exited, any of those or more could get him sent to hospital. His uncle has to carry to him school, because he is too weak to cover the distance from his home with his own two feet.

He has no mother. Why? I don't know. But I know that for this reason, he is easily attached to any woman who seems nice enough. He would hug her and hold her. (That's why the teachers tell his father to clip his nails lest he will scratch them unknowingly.)

Many of the kids in the SCC are from disadvantaged families: poor, single parent, or both. Even for the short amount of time spent there, I could tell, that those children who are missing a mother, are much more sticky and physically affectionate to me, as if to fill in the space left behind by the absent mother. I am not physically a man, or I would have been able to see the empty space caused by an absent father by those who lack one as well.

Sheesh, parents. Please learn to copulate responsibly.


NOTE: I am working part-time, teaching drawing/art at a Student Care Centre where parents who don't have maids park their kids for a day so they can go to work.

"this does not look like your drawing"

, they said.

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Listening: Rookiez is Punk'd - Complication
Reading: Arago - Chapter 22
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(Ya, it is backdated because I forgot to post earlier.)

Drawn as a worksheet of sorts for the upper-primary kids at the SCC. I realise that Beta Centre (Upper Primary) have to be taught differently when compared to Alpha Centre (Lower Primary). Due to too much exposure to Singapore's educational system of too much technicality, too much note-taking and organised topic-by-topic learning. Thus the reason for making these notes.


Felice the witch. I haven't drawn her for a long time. =3 She looks adorable in this style too. XDD


Hawk. As expected of a character whose sight I found annoying the very first time I drew him. And it is rare for a parent to dislike his child, and for me to dislike a character I created. ~__~ But it seems, that his horrible personality have snuck it's way into my drawing again. I think I like him a little more than the Trollzaya. And that's not a lot.


Coloured, for fun.


Those kids first thought I downloaded it off the internet. I said, no, I drew it. Then they said it doesn't look like my drawing. =___= I told them that being an artist is my rice bowl, and knowing a few different styles would make me able to eat not just rice, but noodles, bread and pasta as well. Sssiigh, talking to kids makes me lamer.

Then they went, ah, you're a real artist. =___=

Rawr you little noobs, that's what I've been saying for the past @#$% hours. Though technically, I am not an artist. I am a draftsman. A digital artist. Illustrator. Yea, those.

i was digging about in my folders

... and I found this. Something I drew last year for something that didn't work out. But he's so cute. XDD

<3 the arm.



This piece is the result of my first time screwing about in Manga Studio EX. I didn't know a lot of things then, so I used a lot of wrong settings/tools/layer/etc. Looking back, I think that's why I am not using it now. >.< I too used to Photoshop I guess.

RAAAGE~!! (Clients are stupid. Always.)

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Watching: Alvin and the Chipmunks
Reading: Clients From Hell
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So I emailed someone who previously invited me to apply to a job at her company, for a part-time job in the holidays.

[insert correspondence here]

She says:
I will be an "intern". She will pay me $500 per month. I will have to get my butt down to Kallang from 0930 to 1830 every Monday to Friday.




Like, seriously? I have a Diploma you know. And even intern saikang warriors at Lucas get paid more than that. I should be getting more than this miserable MacDonalds pay.