i had a good early birthday

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Listening: Iwasaki Tarou - SOUL-EATER(SO SCANDALOUS)
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Thanks to Junting, Mel, Glory, Hui hui and Kenneth. ^ ^

In a few days, I'll be 21 months old. So says my parents.

when i start working

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Listening: Orange Range - Locolotion
Random Quote: Imagination is what drives the world - Some scientist dude in my dream
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... I get weird dreams in my sleep. There is an alternative reality in which mechas are piloted by people with great imagination. Because of that, the usually unhealthy DMD-ers are called to become soldiers and pilots. Their imagination and brain waves and sheer will (and SPIRAL ENERGY) is what powers these mechas.

I think I had a dream like that because I really miss the NYP people? Ahahahahaha XDD

Scholarship Essay ($5000 for 2 semesters)

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Listening: Kirk Franklin/tobyMac - Let It Glow
Reading: needmoney.doc (LOL)
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The curriculum at DigiPen Institute of Technology involves rigorous foundational coursework reinforced by a project-based learning approach that allows students to apply their skills and knowledge in an industry-like environment. Describe a time when you have successfully applied something you learned (on your own, from work, or from a class) in a creative, artistic, or academic endeavor.

The first time I learned that colours have emotions was during a Sunday morning, doing my duties in church, through the hands of a 7-year-old boy with Down’s Syndrome. On happy days, Jesus was green and the crippled man was yellow. On sick days, the shepherd was brown and the sheep were blue. On angry tantrum days, Mary was red and infant Jesus was black.

It was an epiphany to find out that there was actually truth and reason behind the colours artists use to symbolize certain emotions to convey the mood of their pieces. It was a real life lesson in colour theory and a teaching in how closely art relates to real life.

Going on this route of an artist and designer has been one of the greatest changing points in my life. I have loved drawing and computers since my childhood, and I choose to not let my passion stay as a hobby, but seek to improve myself by taking a Diploma in Digital Media Design.

Since then, I have become the unofficial marketing director of whatever events that my non-artists friends have planned. I did up posters and websites, in the process of which I learned more about working as a designer.

Recently, I went on a community service trip to Dujiangyan in Sichuan for the survivors of the 2008 earthquake. One of the activities we did was to have the children paint a huge banner, stamping their palm prints on the cloth and writing down their dreams. In preparation for it, I bought poster paints, plates and other materials. On the day itself, I helped in drawing guidelines and markings on the banner and in coordinating the children as to where to print on the banner. Due to the excitement of the children and the sheer number of them, it was slightly chaotic situation, leading to a stressful experience for my group. Thankfully, the banner was completed beautifully in the end without any major problems.

It was only during the debrief that I realized how smooth things went on. There had been two groups assigned to two different camps of temporary housings, and the other group’s banner exercise had been more chaotic than ours. Both groups were very grateful for my advice and guidance as we realized that the banner exercise would not have been that successful. (They would have used the paint without mixing water in which will result in more mess at the banner and at the washing area; they would not have marked out the area for the children and the banner will end up badly composed, the time for the paint to dry could have been left out of the schedule’s calculations…) I too, am grateful for my experience in doing projects at Nanyang Polytechnic and at DigiPen: it was through these grueling projects that I have how to plan this banner exercise so well.

Right after I returned from Sichuan, I was roped in my father (Centre Director of Care Corner Family Service Centre Woodlands) to be a volunteer film director and cameraman for two short promo videos for an upcoming corporate retreat that the centre wanted to produce. My past experiences came in handy once more as I sketched out storyboards and blocked out everyone’s positions.

On the shoot for the first video, due to the drizzling weather, I was forced to rush through the scenes, which, on hindsight, sharpened my improvising skills. During the editing and compositing process of this film, I had to make do with the little footage that I have and piece them together to form something comprehensible and presentable. With that many limitations, it was as though I as doing yet another school project. It makes me feel that the many specifications given for our school assignments are indeed adequate preparation for dealing with the restrictions that non-school work tend to have as well.

The second video gave me more flexibility as it was indoors – free from the constraints of bad weather. The staff were cooperative, and thanks to them, I was allowed more re-shoots and had the opportunity to experiment with more angles. It was also easier to relay instructions indoors rather than outdoors, and having learned from the previous shoot, I was also more able to relaying instructions that the amateur actors can understand. Learning to cope in group projects and getting along well with people in school was really necessary in working out of school too.

In the end, everyone enjoyed our time together. When the editing was done, the video was shown during the company’s corporate devotion. I received feedback from both my father and his staff that the audience were truly entertained and laughed a lot, so much so that all of the other centres and branches of the company started asking Woodlands Centre more about the activities that will take place during the retreat. Everyone got very excited and enthusiastic after seeing the promo videos.

I am very glad that my skills gained from Nanyang Polytechnic and DigiPen were able to help out those around me and bring joy to everyone it reaches to. This further convinces me about the beauty of the media and arts.

I am very blessed to be given my pair of skillful hands and my creative mind. I hope to become even more skillful and creative through my next three years at DigiPen.

i do want to get married...

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Listening: Wonder Girls - Nobody
Watching: The Little Nyonya Episode 33-34
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Ah Ma was watching that popular 小娘惹 show. We got it on DVD from my cousins, who downloaded and burnt it for her. ALL HAIL THE INTERNET.

Then Ah Ma got depressed at the final episode. Because the fake grandma character Xiang Yun was sick and dying, saying that she wished she could see her granddaughter get married. But it being a dumb drama, she didn't make it. Ah Ma was depressed like this. She says she too probably won't get to attend my wedding and goes a bit teary.

What. Imma not going to get a boyfriend just to make her happy. That's not really possible. ~_~

So, I pray that she would live long enough. Hopefully several years more until I get married. XDD

Red Chord

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Listening: Jars of Clay - Love Song for a Savior
Reading: The Case for Faith by Lee Strobel
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Rahab had been a prostitute, but she had faith and welcomed the spies. So she wasn't killed with the people who disobeyed.
　　　　　　　　　　　— Hebrews 11:31 [CEV]

I was reading Lee Strobel's The Case for Faith during our cell group's solitude. The title of the chapter I was reading is "God Isn't Worthy of Worship If He Kills Innocent Children". I won't write down my wall of text about what the chapter was about. But generally: Even if a person was born in a place where there is no God, if he wants to reach out to her, he will find a way. (Anyway, about the children: if children die before the age of accountability, they will go to heaven. So it's really better to kill them quickly before they learn how to do anything evil.)

They killed everyone, men and women, young and old, everyone except Rahab and the others in her house. They even killed every cow, sheep, and donkey.

Joshua said to the two men who had been spies, " Rahab kept you safe when I sent you to Jericho. We promised to protect her and her family, and we will keep that promise. Now go into her house and bring them out."

The two men went into Rahab's house and brought her out, along with her father and mother, her brothers, and her other relatives. Rahab and her family had to stay in a place just outside the Israelite army camp. But later they were allowed to live among the Israelites, and her descendants still do. The Israelites took the silver and gold and the things made of bronze and iron and put them with the rest of the treasure that was kept at the LORD's house. Finally, they set fire to Jericho and everything in it.
　　　　　　　　　　　— Joshua 6:21-25 [CEV]

So that night, I took this red scarf that I originally made for my cosplaying (as Toujou Aya) and tied it to my room window. >.<


/random Jesus' ancestry is full of foreigners.

Salmon the father of Boaz, whose mother was Rahab,
Boaz the father of Obed, whose mother was Ruth,
Obed the father of Jesse,
and Jesse the father of King David.
　　　　　　　　　　　— Matthew 1:5-6 [NIV]

Baccano! is good, essays are bad.

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Listening: 周迅 - 外面
Watching: Scrapped Princess Episode 1
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I have been wanting to write about some things for a long time, but haven't been able to sit down. Well, now I have. I guess I'll recount in reverse chronological order:

Sunday, 15 Feb
My parents are back from Malaysia. My dad said that his sister, has been having dreams of my dead grandpa (their father). In one of those dreams, he told her "You are useless." And when she told my grandma about that dream, my grandma agreed with her. I feel like slapping my grandma on the back for a job well done, but I held back out of "respect" for my aunt. XDD (Like hey, she was in Malaysia, my aunt is in Malaysia, and wtf...? You guys ate reunion dinner without her, and left her alone in her apartment? WTF. Don't you know how lonely she is?)

Saturday, 14 Feb
Baccano! is good. I am in love with Claire Stanfield. So cute.

Friday, 13 Feb
My lecturer kept harping on my inability to look people in the face. (It hurts to look at faces, for me, and for some other autists and etc.) And on Albert's voice (English is not his mother tongue - you should hear him speak Bahasa). Acting module. Arrrggh we know our weaknesses already, stop telling us about it. Albert is so cute. When we look through they videos, I can't stand the sight of myself and want to look away. Bert can't stand the sound of his voice and wants to stuff his ears.

Thursday, 12 Feb
I would smack Japher on the head (oh, I already did) if he wasn't a fifteen-year-old brat. Saying that he hates all "retarded" people. He better not be serious when he says he wants to burn his brother (who has Asperger's).

Tuesday, 10 Feb
A person spoke something, which frightened me a little.

Monday, 09 Feb
I had a dream. There were three birds/winged creatures. Their time passes differently from mine. I met the teenage them first, then the children them, then the adult ones. They were males and quite human. One was yellow, one was green, one was red.

Sunday, 08 Feb
Second week of no children ministry duty, and I miss my kids terribly. Uwaahhh. I miss not wrestling with them who are always biting/clawing/groping/hugging/dancing/head-butting/pulling hair/touching my face/asking to be carried.

Saturday, 07 Feb
The chalet for CJ's 21st birthday. I bought him a Gurren Lagann cup!! *is proud of present*

Thursday, 05 Feb
I amaze myself. I woke up early enough to send Cheri-sama off to Perth.

Wednesday, 04 Feb
I went out to take photos for an assignment. I scared myself. It seems that I am more afraid of people than I thought. I feel ball-ess. (Ughh, oh yea, I had none to begin with.)

Tuesday, 03 Feb
My body has gotten quite horrible. It appears that I am now allergic to certain kinds of artificial flavourings. It didn't use to be like that. Anyway, things like that inflicts the status: Hyperactive on me, which, while fun, is horrify. I can't concentrate on anything at all, because there are over 9000 thoughts/smells/sounds/memories/senses going through my mind. And I also can't sleep at all, because there are over 9000 thoughts/smells/sounds/memories/senses going through my mind. Even honey triggers that status. And I only took 5 spoons!!

Sunday, 01 Feb
I miss my kids. I want to see the adorable girl who is so like me in the Attention Deficit Disorder sense. (Missing the H bit, thank God.) She's too young for doctor's to tell, but I also think she has Angelman's Syndrome, by the way. Which of course, buffs her with 4x Cuteness.

Saturday, 31 Jan
Mahjong = awesome.

Prawns

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Listening: Relient K - Devastation and Reform
Watching: Baccano! Episode 3
Reading: Usagi Drop Chapter 12
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I discovered, I am still very uncomfortable with talking to people one-on-one in a room where no one else is around. It is quite weird na. Not that I don't enjoy it. I don't mind company. I like people. Just that, sit-beside-you-to-talk is weird. I don't mind physical contact, really. It is the verbal questions I mind.

The last I time remembered something like that was like... five years ago in Sec 3. (In Poly, you won't be in a room with only one other person, hardly.)

Thank goodness though, that person is not a girl asking me questions about me. I don't like questions like that. Because I hear them too often? Browser strategy games make better conversation topics.

Mmmrrgggh. I think I am just being an ass.


And I ate prawn omelette on Saturday, thinking it'll be fine. Like hey, if I get a reddish nose/ears/neck, it will wear off after chinese new year right?

WRONG. The prawns... they were, very, very fresh. If I ate anymore, asthma~!! *sucks on brown inhaler*

Greedy me.

苦笑

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Listening: Relient K - Up and Up
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Joanne said she wished she could be a boy. Because her two guy friends are staying over, together, again.


I laughed. Laughed. Because it was really funny.

Dear sister, you have said something I have been praying to God about, for the last 11- no, 12 years.

XDD

Not Even Wrong

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Listening: Epik High - Fan
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Title: Not Even Wrong: Adventures in Autism
Author: Paul Collins
Call Number: 618.92

(It is not a book review. It is me taking notes before I return the book to the library.)

The first recorded autist was probably Peter the Wild Boy. He was dumped by his parents for not being able to talk. He was found in the wild at 12 years old and taken to King George.

The dude who came out with the Linnaean taxonomy classified the kid as a different species all together, Homo ferus. Imagine the lulz if there are really two distinct species of humans. All the Homo sapiens sapiens would kill themselves sooner or later in frustration and become extinct and the world will be filled with Homo ferus.

......... *bursts out laughing on the floor*

Nothing to do with the book, I answered "Anne" for the Sally-Anne Test. Ahahahaha. Oops. But okay, I changed my answer later.

A survey of a thousand British parents of autistic children in comparison to that of neurotypical children showed that there were double the number of engineering fathers, a hell lot more with jobs involving science and accounting (solo-ist type jobs), and quadruple the number of artists. At Cambridge, science major students have autism in their family six times more than literature major students. WhatifImarryanengineer -Kolkolkolkolkol

That does explain why there are most autists nowadays. Dong dong dong dong... There are more engineers and matheticians and programmers now than before, no?

Computers came from a dude who was suspected to have Asperger's. The author gave a talk at Microsoft, and the programmer guys were on their notebooks, looking at the screen, instead of watching him. They were watching a live podcast of his talk, even with him right in front of them. Epic-ness.

I understand that bit well. It is hard to look at people. Like it hurts. Ummm, my secondary schoolmates can attest to it, I think. They were complaining to me about it last week. XDD

And regarding savantism, there is an interesting explanation. When a kid is about 2 years old, his/her brain forms neural connections at an imba speed, and many of these connections are kinda "redundant" or hetare. Then at 3 years old, it's pruning time!! Chop chop chop. So lucky autistic guys with savants get pruned differently, and therefore maintain their rare neural connections, enabling them with hax hearing/artistic/calculation/etc skills. I think it also comes with screwed up senses of touch/hearing/smell/whatever.

And here ends fun note-taking. Also, I am NOT autistic. I only have adhd. And certain characteristic of the autism spectrum. Na nana nananana.



Other authors I plan to check out: Thinking in Pictures by Temple Grandin (what a cool name), Uta Frith and Simon Baron-Cohen. As usual, I might not really do so if they are not tl;dr enough. I have a short attention span.

lots of xi

and that's why they all have the same face. they are clones. ahahahahaha





i drew these two during church sermons. ironically, they are all of weapons. i feel sinful. shall repent. *cough*

lineup~!!

i tried putting them together to make sure they have the same face, but somehow the oldest one looks different. it must be the hair length >.< i phailed so bad......

yet another drawing of weapons done in an inappropriate place...

... at hospital (not me in bed, was my grandma)

Granado Espada art

(Since the old NNK forums closed, I am on an uploading spree of my very old drawings.)

During this short time where I played GE and hung about in the forums a lot, I somehow became a Goddess (idol). Ahahahaha.


It was a remix of this.


After this, I don't think I ever did anything else with as much detail.


Ang Pao competition.


Christmas card competition.

done in the boredom of my internship

I remember feeling, that there was something very beautiful, very enchanting, yet very creepy about this drawing. (And it's not just the red overlay.)

Dæmon

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Listening: m-flo loves Alex(CLAZZIQUAI PROJECT) - Love Me After 12AM
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Actually, clicking on this one is better. My own assessment of myself was an ocelot, but Mum turned me into a tiger. Just like she turned Ant into a tiger. Goodness, does she think all her children are ferocious beasts or something?

sorting hat desu

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Listening: Monkey Majik - Around the World (movie ver.)
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Kope from Ant's blog.

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done drugs.
[x] You like a lot of people.
[x] You get along with everyone.
[ ] You love FOOTBALL
[ ] You love baseball.
[x] You're into writing and art
[x] Favorite music genre is rock.
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory.
[x] One of your favorite colors is red or gold.
[ ] Good grades at school.
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie.
[ ] You plan on going to college.
TOTAL: 7

HUFFLEPUFF:
[x] You're content with mostly
everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[ ] Politics suck.
[ ] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome.
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite color.
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing.
[ ] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[x] You're an optimist.
[ ] You're very emotional.
[ ] You believe in going steady at a young age.
[ ] You haven't made fun of anyone this month.
[x] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship.
TOTAL: 4

RAVENCLAW:
[ ] You've been depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theater & arts.
[ ] Sports suck.
[ ] Indie is one of your favorite genre of music.
[ ] Every once in a while you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay.
[ ] Blue is one of your favorite colors.
[x] Knowledge is the key to power.
[x] Sarcasm is the best kind of humor.
[x] People should know what they're talking about before they talk.
TOTAL: 6

SLYTHERIN:
[ ] There's at least one person you hate.
[x] Basketball is a good sport.
[ ] AFL Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[ ] You've lied about something serious.
[ ] You're a very deep person.
[ ] You have considered suicide.
[ ] You are not very loyal.
[x] You like heavy metal.
[x] They make school seem more important than it is.
[x] You're scared to grow up.
[ ] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[ ] You have trust issues.
TOTAL: 5

I score so little for everything. I really have flat emotions. XDD

NNK Forums art

(Since the old NNK forums closed, I am on an uploading spree of my very old drawings.)

Stuff done for a story we worked on, with characters we created.

Oh yea, right-to-left please.
Page 2	Page 1

Aww man, the fun times.


It was my first attmept at something fanservicey? Rather noob, but, heck, it was fun.


This, is a rather ironical comparison to my real-life then.

Right-to-left again.

It is not my plot. Don't ask. =DD

I don't get this lovey-emotion-thingy

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Listening: Yellowcard - Two weeks from Twenty
Watching: Gurren Lagann Episode 16
Reading: D.Gray Man Chapter 125
Random Quote: Tragically, as many as 9625 out of every 10,000 individuals may be neurotypical. - Institute for the Study of the Neurologically Typical
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My sister is in love now and she cannot take it, cannot control herself anymore, cannot just ignore and must be attached to him, even if he is not a Christian. Weird feelings. BAAAHHHH. Neurotypicals. Pfftt.


I went out with a group of Japanese exchange students on Saturday. It was fun, especially treating them to Carrot Cake and Chin Chow at a hawker centre. They were like "what is this?" And I drew a carrot and grass for them. They went "wow". Heh.

All Singaporean guys should learn from the Japanese guys. Hide and Satoshi told me "You are very pretty". And being unused to being told this by another guy, I stoned for several seconds, before and bowing and saying "arigatou" profusely. =__= It is weird, because Singaporean guys never say that a girl is pretty unless they are going after them, whereas the Japanese guys do. And because of that, I have no idea how to react when being told I am pretty. =__=

Hide wanted to give me a small plushie rabbit too. I rejected it because I'm not used to presents either. (Okaayyy, I admit that I am shy!!) Damn me, was it rude to refuse it? Haha. Chinese have a custom of pushing presents: "you take lar" "no it's for you" &mdash that bit I am very Chinese (despite language impairment). Not a fan of plush toys really. =PP


More art dayo:

Bwwaah. Arm position is wrong.

now and then

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Listening: 周华健 - 江湖笑
Watching: Devil May Cry Episode 1
Random Quote: Forget about the impossible and throw reason away!! - Kamina, Gurren Lagann
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THEN (2002)
1. How old were you 5 years ago?
14

2. Where did you go to school?
Presbyterian High School

3. Where did you work?
School ; ___ ;

4. Where did you live?
Woodlands?

5. Where did you hang out?
My BED. XDD

6. Did you wear glasses?
Yea

7. Who were your best friends?
At Sec 2, didn't have any.

8. Who was your crush?
None? Or maybe I am lying.

9. How many tattoos did you have?
Do bruises count? =DD

10. How many piercings did you have?
2, 1 for each ear.

11. What car did you drive?
Underaged. >.<

12. Had you had your heart broken?
Emo until kena broken, I think? I don't remember my Sec 2 self a lot.

13. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?
Single (duh)

NOW (2007)
1. How old are you?
19

2. Where do you work?
School (still). Freelancing once a while? =PP

3. Where do you live?
Woodlands, and camping in school once a while (especially during my FYPJ next term).

4. Do you wear glasses?
Yeps, but I wear contacts once a while.

5. Who are your best friends?
CJ, Joan, Lychee, Hamster, Amirah, Yong Ming, Joyce. Mark, Paso and Anti, if I am allowed to include online friends (← computer addict)

6. Do you talk to your old friends?
Yeps, randomly when I feel like.

7. How many piercings do you have?
*points to "then"*

8. How many tattoos do u have?
*points to "then"*

9. What kind of car do you have?
*points to "then"*

10. Has your heart been broken?
Nope =3 Too dense for anything to break it, heh.

11. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
Single, and waiting for a right Dragon Knight of God to appear. >.<

blue wizard?

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Listening: HIGH VOLTAGE - UNDERGROUND
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I fell sick yesterday, and thus didn't go for CGO that day. Rawr. It was the last day too. I wanted to hear Polygon Pictures talk!!

Anyway, that's not what I am here for. This is:


Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

Ahahahaha that's true. Even if it's not how I act like. No wonder why TypeLogic describes me as "Introverted Thinking" and "Extroverted Feeling". Ahh, by the way, anyone interested can take the Jung Typology Test.

i met 3 gods today

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Listening: Within Temptation - Angels
Reading: CG Overdrive 07 Show Directory
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Square Enix Co. Ltd.
Hashimoto Shinji - Corporate Executive (Producer of FF7AC)
Nozue Takeshi - Co-director (CG Director, Co-director of FF7AC)
Kuroda Toyokata - Supervising Technical Director (Body setup, Cloth simulation for FF7AC)





And the cute thing is, they were so human lor. Wearing white T-shirt, black polo tees, jeans, white skull caps. Setting up their own booth, sticking up their posters on the booth with double-sided tape, sticking wrong, peeling it off, grumbling when they tore it a little. Drinking coke from vending machines, asking for packet green teas. So unlike all those stars who 走路有风, they don't need bodyguards, they thank you when you ask them for their signatures, they smile and laugh with you... they're like, so completely human.

And they look thinner in real life than in their photographs. Nozue-sama looks like he hasn't eaten for months. ._.


I met Stanley Lau too. He's so friendly!! And really tall. Siyin thinks he is handsome. We were looking at the imagine prime artbook (S$70), and he came and chat with us. And later at the end of the day, he waved at us and said goodbye!! So nice of him. XDD


Saru is thinking of Polygon Pictures. They are looking for Character Modelers who can Maya. Imagine, work in Japan, earn yen, change back to SGD, woot. Need to work on demo reel!!

so i have been told i look like anime

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Listening: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face down (acoustic)
Watching: Gurren Lagann Episode 11
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I drew this as self-caricature, anime-style, and I have been told it looks like me. Do I look that pretty/freaky?


Blehhh my painting deteriorated. Ugly.

I like the b/w version better.


Yes I do assignments until bored.