it is amusing to draw emotes for an emotionless man

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Listening: Jars of Clay - Flood
Random Quote: Sometimes, trying your best is still not good enough.
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For the sake of trolling: IT'S A PIXIV YAOI MEME!!



... feels like I'm reverse-engineering "spot-the-difference".

And no, I can't draw "uke" properly either. I get hand cramps there.

it ish sho sparkly.

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Listening: Kutless - What Faith Can Do
Reading: Eoin Colfer - The Legend of Spud Murphy
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Old old artwork from like last semester. They were forgotten until recently.





Also, Y U NO LIEK ME, Photobucket? Cannot upload, then cannot resize, then cannot rename. Make me do everything in such a roundabout manner. D=

Why say grace when you can sing grace?

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Listening: Komine Lisa - unity
Playing: Angry Birds Chrome
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Thank you for the world so sweet, oh-hum
Thank you for the food we eat, yum-yum
Thank you for the birds that sing-a-ling-a-ling
Thank you god for everything. Amen.

twitter!

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Listening: (TWEWY OST) Leah - Calling
Reading: The Sunday Times election reports
Playing: The World Ends With You
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I was following election news updates, so I created a twitter account. Then I got bored, so I drew a background for it.

http://twitter.com/martianunicorn

Stoning on an oekaki.



Actually, drawing brainlessly is rather fun. I'll miss that when school starts again.

drawing in dim light

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Listening: Usher ft. Pitbull - DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love
Watching: a spinning faggot Turntable of my incomplete model
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not only does it kill your eyeballs, it is also seriously hard. Perspective errors, anatomical errors, off-model, amongst many others, all the time. Can't be helped, I cannot avoid time-consuming critique session held in a dark classroom.


Inspired by Granado Espada and Sound Horizon.



And ball-point pen is really made of win. Even though I made so many mistakes which cannot be erased, looking at a complete sketch salvaged out of a nest of mistakes is calming to nerves.

i am pissed off with so many things now...

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Listening:(werk) Battle Moon Wars - Strain string
Reading: NisiOisiN and Akatsuki Akira - Medaka Box Chapter 90
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... so here, a dump that looks like a dump.



Because Lamentable Nights is the only thing I am not pissed off with at the moment. It's my anti-rage.

do the dansen~!!

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Listening: (werk) Battle Moon Wars - The Sword of Promised Victory
Reading: Shinohara Kenta - Sket Dance Chapter 133
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One of the most diabetically annoying things I have ever done. CLICK FOR THE SWF!!

We wanted to, uh, learn to hate flash less. So I did fanart. Hur hur. It worked, sorta. Now get back to work!

i need something to cheer me up

I thought: we haven't scanned this, have we? But I was lazy to scan it, so we used the handphone camera.




And I hate Flash. Even more so than Max. That takes a lot. Or maybe, I just don't like our lecturer.

TT ^ TT I miss you, Illustrator. You too, Toon Boom.

Unlimited Incantation

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Listening: Nishiura Tomohito - Cold Open ~Professor Layton's Theme~
Reading: Ookubo Astsuhi - Soul Eater Not! Chapter 1
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For some reason, I feel inspired to create my own UBW incantation. And here we go.

I am the ink of my pen
Characters are my body and story is my blood
I have created over a thousand images
Impervious to doubt, powered by imagination
Having withstood reality to create many worlds
Yet, these dreams will never coalesce
This is my life, unlimited art works


(Yes, I am a fan of Type-Moon.)

assortment of (fan)arts [Fall 2010 Semester]

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Listening: Far East Movement ft. Ryan Tedder - Rocketeer
Reading: The World God Only Knows - Chapter 127
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When Saru gets stuck in a drawing-block, especially after too much storyboarding and environment painting, she draws random charas/fanarts. Because they're relaxing.




Drawn some time ago, but scanned last semester.

And back to Fall 2010 stuff.

it is one of those days

where you feel the impulse to open up your skull and grab your brains out to throw them hard against the wall. Like that.


I hate Max. I f*cking hate Max.

What this game really needs, is a PAUSE button.

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Listening: YUI - again
Reading: Darren Shan manga - Volume 07
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That. So that there will be fewer players who feel like rage-quitting.

The GM who plans events for my PC really has a really bad sense of humour. Or overestimates my capability.

During my final weeks of semester quest? He throws in a funeral event.


My maternal grandfather passed away suddenly, on Sunday morning, in the toilet. Of all of my parents and grandparents, he is the one whose personality mine is most similar too. Mum and I guess he had ADHD as well.

Tentatively, cremation on Thursday. We don't know yet because the body is still undergoing an autopsy.

myhandsohcrapcrappcraappp

I want to say help me. but i don't know to who.

My hands are weak. especially when i carry or pick up something. My palms are sweating. what should i do? it is not just my right hand: if it was it would be from modeling in maya the whole weekend. my left hand too.

What can i do? the rest of my body feels fine. it is just my arms. i am not sick... i think.

as one can tell, even typing is hard. i feel so bad, i did not go to school today.

h e l p . . . ?

i am scared

a guy i haven't met is making me haemorrhage through my nose

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Listening: Gakupo - Joker
Reading: http://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/N
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Clearly, he is not a Real.

He is N from the new Pokemon game Black/White.



http://booru.151chan.org/post/list/N/2

Seriously, just look at him. *nosebleeds*

boy model in a gay walk pose

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Listening: Meiko & Kaito - The Pair Tree Witherer
Reading: Fairy Tail Chapter 207-209
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I hate:

• CAT Rig
• 3DS Max
• Digipen

Nice, the ADHD kicked in.

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Listening: Kagamine Len - SPICE!
Random Quote: We die every time we hand in our assignments, and resurrect with 1HP directly after that. We recover half of our MaxHP with sleep. Cycle repeats, except recovery is up to a quarter. And then an eighth. And then sixteenth. Until the end of the semester. - Joelynn
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I am not sure why. This semester, my ADHD seems to be in full blast. And Joelynn has been taking fish oils regularly most of the time too. Joelynn does not comprehend.

• She leaves my thumbdrive at home.
• She also leaves my handphone at home.
• She misplace assignments in his (now very neat) room. How does that happen?
• As a result, she leaves some of them out when he scan them.
• She cannot remember faces.
• She gets distracted within a third of the time he used to be.
• Though she read less manga, more dreams are seen and more events take place in his worlds.
• She cannot remember deadlines for crap.
• She cannot remember the exact specs of what is required.
• She forgets if he has eaten something she put in the fridge or not.
• She forgets to leave for school.

While all that does not affect me that badly (as a person), it will leave it's mark on my grades. One particular marine seal is particularly anal about punctuality and is warning me against failing. And that also causes me to mouth "fuck" to myself regularly. Siiigghh, Joelynn picked up another new bad habit.

I wonder if I could get some proper drugs for ADHD. Fish oil is fine and all, but sometimes desperate times may require desperate measures.

roleplay character portraits

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Listening: Sound Horizon - Utsuku shiki Mono
Reading: Lamentable Nights: The RP
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We restarted our RP at the NNK forums!! We're going reeeaally slow this round, making stuff clean and easy to follow. We have a user friendly wikia too!!

I tried to be funny this time, so I rendered these with Alias Sketchbook. (Yes, it is Alias, screw Autodesk.)


Varian Durer, my second PC, also a hidden character of sorts that will probably not show up at all, given the speed we are going at. (He also has a sister called Constance and a brother called Equates. Hail Mathematics!!)


My main PC. She's pretty much the same as in the previous failed RP. She's also an expy of an old character, Alex. So cute. =3 *sparkles*

i can't give a name to my emotion now

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Listening: Detroit Metal City - Mesu Buta Koukyoukyoku
Watching: Birdy the Mighty DECODE 02 - Episode 12
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I don't know, how to express myself. Much less expressing myself with drawings. I don't draw to express myself, I draw what I see in my head.



When I tried to express myself? We get this bad perspective thing.

10 favourite couples

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Listening: Yakushimaru Etsuko - Jesus to Venus
Watching: Nurarihyon no Mago - Episode 2
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I am bored.

Even though I am me who doesn't believe in romantic love, there are still couples I like rather much.

10. Igarashi Ganta / Shiro
(Deadman Wonderland)
Childhood friends who play together, despite the fact that one of them is a monster. Yea, I have no childhood.

9. Sima Yi / Shan Wuling
(The Ravages of Time)
Being together so they can make us of each other and scheme together? I approve.

8. Nougami Neuro / Katsuragi Yako
(Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro)
A sadistic demon who drags around a human girl to feed on the mysteries of other humans? I also approve. Well, there's also the fact that both have learnt from and taught each other many things about life.

7. Guts / Casca
(Berserk)
Guts may have struggled with it at first, but still tries to look after his wife, who is at the moment, mentally disabled. It is difficult, you know.

6. Ushiromiya Battler / Beatrice
(Umineko no Naku Koro ni)
They spent several years in a room debating. The proposition (an immortal witch) trolls humans about to prove that there are witches and magic, and the opposition (a human with a magic resistance of 9000+) vehemently refutes the existence of the supernatural. It is funny yet badass. And they got married.

5. Hanabishi Rekka / Satoshita Yanagi
(Flame of Recca)
It was something that started off as fanboyism of a ninja and his princess. Sweet in a simple straightforward way. And well, it was one of my first mangas.

4. Kamina / Yoko
(Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann)
Because Kamina is awesome.

3. Ichinomiya Kou (Recruit) / Nino
(Arakawa Under the Bridge)
Nino saves Kou in more than one ways, giving him a reason to do and receive acts of kindness without expecting a reward.

2. Amamiya Yuuhi / Asahina Samidare
(Lucifer and Biscuit Hammer)
Sami loves the world enough to want to destroy it, Yuu supports her because he hates the world and wants to destroy it. Lovely screwed-up-ness. Though Yuu starts to change through the series and stops Sami.

1. Pip Bernadotte / Seras Victoria
(Hellsing)
The only blood Seras ever drinks, is Pip's. ~__~ Those two are just really cute. Bwaaah---

End.

What is wrong with daydreams?

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Listening: Suneohair - Sakasama Bridge
Watching: Birdy the Mighty Decode - The Cipher
Reading: Nononono - Chapter 60
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I already understand, that fantasy and make-believe is a form of escapism from real life. But why is it wrong? Perhaps I should take it up to 11 and become a resident of Arakawa.

Everyone daydreams too, just each differing in their levels and type of imagination. Besides, if people like us don't daydream,
Who will write stories?
Who will draw illustrations?
Who will author manga?
Who will design characters?
Who will plan storyboards?
Who will shoot movies?
Who will animate films?
Who will make games?


As a parent, I feel sad that my children/creation's existence is being so definitively rejected. I am more God-like then I know, sometimes.